Step One;

2013-04-24

I finally get a chance to dance and do a real show again and then my knee decides that it needs to fuck up completely and not allow me to do anything.

I try really hard to love my body, but it’s hard when my body doesn’t love me.

2013-01-15

Shout out to my insurance for not even covering half of my prescription.

2012-10-16

Today the doctor said he didn’t want to xray me because ladies only have a limited amount of eggs and xrays kill them.

Bitch please, I’ve had so many xrays done because of scoliosis and pneumonia that it really doesn’t matter anymore. And I don’t want kids anyway.

2012-09-17

Insurance company fucked up so bad.

They didn’t let me get my allergy medicine, so my dad had to end up paying full price for it because they couldn’t ship it to me until a week and a half after I initially ran out.

Because I didn’t get my allergy medicine, and I spent the better part of a week congested and sneezing, I now have a fuckin’ sinus infection, which may or may not twist itself into pneumonia, because that’s usually what happens to me.

Health services, away! Actually, I’m probably going to wait until Wednesday or so, just to see if it doesn’t clear up.

2012-08-27

not sure if my back hurts because i’m stressed/irritable or i’m stressed/irritable because my back hurts.

2012-07-13

I don’t know what this is from, but this is exactly how I was when I was sick. I say sick because I was sick, mental illness is an actual illness. I didn’t eat, I didn’t take my medicine, I didn’t sleep, and I didn’t even laugh for months. And then I talked to my doctor, and I got better.

The point of this is that mental illness is an actual illness, which means you shouldn’t feel any shame in talking to someone about it so you can be better.

(via yourkissesaremyweakness)

Source: uglys0ul

2012-06-24

sdjfsd;aoifnwe I don’t go to the doctor until AUGUST but I would really like these problems fixed soon-ish because I don’t like it.

2012-06-20

TMI Wednesday.

I’m going to start my period soon. Which means I’m currently lying on my bed with the fan on because I’m so goddam hot, and I’ve been alternating between dizzy and nauseous. Cancelled all my plans with everyone. Mom’s making fun of me because I’m “being over-dramatic” and “every woman goes through this”. She then followed with “my cramps are never bad.”

But yeah. Doctor’s appointment in August, to see if my ovaries/uterus have calmed down, which it seems they haven’t. And I’ll go from there.

2012-05-31

yeah, this is just a rant.

I was supposed to go back to my orthopedic specialist when I was fifteen, but I never did because it was expensive and my curves were like 3 degrees under “we need to do something about this now”, and I was also supposed to go to physical therapy, but since my curves weren’t “we need to do something about this now” my parents didn’t really do anything about it, and I just dropped it because I had to fight for two years just for them to tell me I had scoliosis, and by that time I pretty well gave up.

But now I think my curves are worse, and it hurts more, and I can move less, and sometimes my fingers get all tingly. Probably doesn’t it make it better that I’m constantly catching myself sitting all squiggly, just like my curves.

It doesn’t make it better that I have to deal with this for the rest of my life and be in pain every single day, but if my mother does something stupid and hurts her back, she immediately is allowed to go to the chiropractor and bam fixed, but my pain isn’t real.

Step One;

2013-04-24

2013-02-11

2013-01-15

2013-01-14

2012-10-16

2012-09-17

2012-08-27

2012-07-13

2012-06-24

2012-06-20

TMI Wednesday.

2012-05-31

yeah, this is just a rant.

2012-05-24

2012-02-15

2012-02-12

2012-02-01